Grief is a Tiger
I have found much comfort in the cards and well wishes of my friends and every one I have talked to about Danielle and I know that Alice has also found a great deal of support, in fact, without this support her despair would be complete..
There is still a cry from the depths of the heart that no gentle words can soothe. I don't know the writing of other religions and cultures, so I must look toward the passages in the Holy Bible that can speak to my heart and understanding.
The pain I am feeling is one of deep sorrow and sadness but it does not contain the ferocious roar - the grief of a mother at the death of her child. This grief demands more than gentle kind words. It demands recognition.
These words: "Ramah is heard the sound of moaning, of bitter weeping! Rachel mourns her children, she refuses to be consoled because her children are no more." Jeremiah 31:15
These words: "My God, my God, why have you abandoned me? Why so far from my call for help, from my cries of anguish? My God, I call by day, but you do not answer: by night, but I have no relief?" Psalm 22:1-3
These words: "Ramah is heard the sound of moaning, of bitter weeping! Rachel mourns her children, she refuses to be consoled because her children are no more." Jeremiah 31:15
These words: "My God, my God, why have you abandoned me? Why so far from my call for help, from my cries of anguish? My God, I call by day, but you do not answer: by night, but I have no relief?" Psalm 22:1-3
Words of anger at known or unknown enemies -" anger at God Himself - anger because what has happen should not have happened: "Oppose, Lord, those who oppose me; war upon those who make war upon me. Take up the shield and buckler; rise up in my defense. Brandish lance and battle-ax against my pursuers. Say to my heart, 'I am your salvation'. Let those who seek my life be put to same and disgrace. Let those who plot evil against me be turned back and confounded. Make them like chaff before the wind, with the angel of the Lord driving them on. May their way slippery and dark, with the angel of the Lord pursuing them." Psalm 35:1-6
We stand on the edge of that great abyss of despair and scream our despair until our voice gives out - until the roar of the tiger is quiet and peace makes her way back into our heart.
“Lord, your love reaches to heaven; your fidelity, to the clouds. Your justice is like the highest mountains; your judgments, like the mighty deep; all living creatures you sustain, Lord.
How precious is your love, O God? We take refuge in the shadow of your wings. We feast on the rich food of your house; from your delightful stream you give us drink. For with you is the fountain of life, and in your light we see light. Continue your kindness toward your friends, your just defense of the honest hearts” Psalm 36:6-12
“Lord, your love reaches to heaven; your fidelity, to the clouds. Your justice is like the highest mountains; your judgments, like the mighty deep; all living creatures you sustain, Lord.
How precious is your love, O God? We take refuge in the shadow of your wings. We feast on the rich food of your house; from your delightful stream you give us drink. For with you is the fountain of life, and in your light we see light. Continue your kindness toward your friends, your just defense of the honest hearts” Psalm 36:6-12
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